Love

Being a mom has taught me a lot about love.  Not just about my capability to love as a mother but about the love our Heavenly Father has for us. 

The other night Jase cried and cried.....and cried, for 45 minutes he cried and after trying every possible thing I could think of to try and console him with no success, I cried too.  I felt like a failure as a mom, why couldn't I fix whatever was wrong? Why couldn't I even figure out what was wrong? I thought to myself if I could just take away whatever pain or thing was bothering him I would do it in a heart beat! I have never wished anyone elses pain on myself but as a mom I find myself wishing it all the time! Especially when Jase was first born and seemed to be in constant pain I wanted nothing more than to take it from him.  It just broke my heart to watch him helplessly, knowing this was something his body would have to learn to deal with and eventually grow out of by himself. 

I imagine our Heavenly parents feel much the same way watching their children here grow and experience pain in this life. I have always known that our Heavenly Parents loved us but I don't think I ever really understood how much until I had a child of my own! Its hard to imagine being loved so much more than the love I have for Jase... sometimes I feel like the Grinch, lol. In a single moment my heart grows 3 times the size it previously was...and it happens multiple times daily!  It's a good feeling to love so much, I am grateful for it! Anyway, that's just a thought that's been on my mind lately!

Jases "smolder"...