Sharing is Hard....

Sharing my child is hard... which is something I never expected.

Before you have kids, people who have kids make it seem like once you do have kids all you'll want to do is get away from them for a little while, to have a break! Maybe its because this is my first kid or maybe its because he is still so little but this has not been my experience. It took me a long time to even leave him alone with Dallen just while I went to the store and while I was there I would text Dallen to check up on Jase to see how he was doing.  

I'm sure when he reaches a certain age I will indeed enjoy a little break and I'll admit that yes I am a little over protective, Dallen likes to remind me of that ha ha but I have never been away from him for more than an hour and a half and every minute I am away I worry about him. When he's asleep I scroll through pictures of him. (I'm just a little obsessed) I like to think I worry so much because he's been kinda a hard baby and I sometimes feel like I am the only one who understands him and if I leave him how long will it take whoever is watching him to figure out what he needs?  Of course a little crying wont hurt and I know he'll survive. I also know its the only way for others to get to know him and figure him out but it just breaks my heart. I'm a three month old mom with a new baby and I'm trying to learn how to share again.

This was the day we moved home. Jase screamed from Arches all the way to my house. Grandpa is trying to calm him down :)